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malamute29
26 November 2008 @ 09:08 pm

It's been a really long time since I last posted, one of the really big things is that I got the oppertunity to stage manage a production of amadeus this year and I meet some really cool people while doing it. I think it helped me grow up a little and become way more responcible running a whole cast and crew and maintaining their respect is a pretty demanding task but I relish the challenge

In furry news I guess I really have come to grips with myself I'm not really a huge fan of the community, I guess it may be me but I seem to always be the outsider on an inside joke, and after a while that really starts to get annoying. I think as far as the fandom goes I can't find where I belong my friend keeps saying it's an open community you can be yourself he also tells me it's a group that accepts people unconditionally but I can't find it again refering to the whole feeling of being on the outside of an inside joke.

Moveing forward I have continued playing guitar I am now learning peace of mind by Boston and am working on my own material I hope that mabey I can get in a band that's kinda my dream right now .

I wrote this on my itouch by the way

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malamute29
05 June 2008 @ 11:35 pm
Nothing is really new, im getting tapping down, working on triplets, and sweeping, basicly building agility, 
 
 
malamute29
23 May 2008 @ 11:36 pm
Well my Cables have gone to shit, there makeing too much noise and I gotta replace them.  Nothing much for today, more will be updated on the Kayaking trip.
 
 
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Current Mood: anxiousanxious
 
 
malamute29
22 May 2008 @ 07:25 pm
Well, my weekend trip is comeing up soon.  Im looking forward to the 14 mile kayak trip, its gonna be a lot of fun, I found out that over the years I work best as an individual (unless the group i know is some of my closest friends) and kayaking is a lot of fun anyways.
    Well, as predicted Kyle is giving me shit for being furry, it helps that I don't associate myself with the fandom, I have my own views and I don't agree with the fandom


song of the day is 94 Hours by As I lay Dying

94 hours of regret for me to realize what I held
Unfading beauty, not just a face
I held it's innocence within my heart
Go!
Now I won't let go
I won't let go
I won't let go
I won't
I won't let go
I won't
I won't let go
The torment of your eyes has awakened my soul.
The torment of your eyes has awakened my soul.
The pain of a moment's time will forever beg your forgiveness
Forgiveness
94 hours for me to realize
I held unfailing beauty
I held your innocence


I really don't have any great connection with it, but it has one hell of a guitar part.
 
 
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Current Music: 94 Hours by As I lay Dying
 
 
malamute29
21 May 2008 @ 08:01 pm
Well, finals are next week and my teachers refuse to review anything we did this semester, however, one of my friends at school pieced together that im "furry," (his name is Kyle, he played a joke on me tricking me into believing that he was jewish for an entire semester before finally letting the truth spill out) apparently his sisters friend is a fur and he knows them, so he put 2 and 2 together.  I explained to him that I don't affiliate myself w/the fandom in any way, and that changes things because most people who are furry (from my limited experience) feel a strong connection to the fandom, I don't.  I told them there was a line between me and that fandom that you do not pass, in my direct quote "Don't go poking your head into the fandom...either one"
    Not much other than that happened today, I may write about a song or something later.
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: chipperchipper
Current Music: Country Roads
 
 
 
malamute29
20 May 2008 @ 07:08 pm
Almost heaven, west virginia
Blue ridge mountains
Shenandoah river -
Life is old there
Older than the trees
Younger than the mountains
Growin like a breeze

Country roads, take me home
To the place I belong
West virginia, mountain momma
Take me home, country roads

All my memories gathered round her
Miners lady, stranger to blue water
Dark and dusty, painted on the sky
Misty taste of moonshine
Teardrops in my eye

Country roads, take me home
To the place I belong
West virginia, mountain momma
Take me home, country roads

I hear her voice
In the mornin hour she calls me
The radio reminds me of my home far away
And drivin down the road I get a feelin
That I should have been home yesterday, yesterday

Country roads, take me home
To the place I belong
West virginia, mountain momma
Take me home, country roads

Country roads, take me home
To the place I belong
West virginia, mountain momma
Take me home, country roads
Take me home, now country roads
Take me home, now country roads

    I never really stopped to think about what that song really means to me, I've lived a little in the country, and in the past i've hated it.  I think when im out and Im on those long winding country roads that I really do like to just be by myself.  That song means so much, and every time I hear it I look back on my time in the country when I've been alone and watched the sun set, the time I hiked up and down a river, following it because I feel compelled to.  The thing is I see the one river I'm watching, and I see the beauty of the stream, something that gives life to the whole area, that makes the trees the lush green that you can only find in the real country, that silent beauty of no cars no civilization, the sound of life before technology (hard to believe living in the city).  Then I think about how many of these beautiful places there are in the world, that I want to see them, that I want to move on, and live a life full of the stories of my "youth" that I lived a life that I myself am proud to have said I've lead, because that Is what is truly important to me. 
 
 
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Current Mood: contentcontent
Current Music: Country Roads
 
 
malamute29
19 May 2008 @ 08:31 pm
Well a lot has happened since my last installment, not much on the grand scheme of things but a lot of social activity (an annomily for me and i hope it becomes more regular, caus its really fun) 

Last Friday, I went to Rock's house, (one of Wildfox's friends in RL) so I went to his house and played Wii sports and some other stuff, a few other people were there as well, then we went to the local resturaunt, and had some pizza, it wasn't the best thing on the planet, but whatever.  Then we played B-ball at Wild's house, and did some other stuff (its odd the different traditions that they have, when I went to a friends house we went skateboarding and went to Razzel DAzzel or some other local place and just kinda did w/e)

    I bike now on saturdays its fun and i enjoy the rough and rugged trail that is by my house (about a mile away) I asked Wild if he wanted to go and he said he would, so I bike the 15 miles down the trail to his house and call him when im around mile 13 telling him to head to the perserve.  He tries to tell me that hes in a totally different location and that i need to meet him (thats an additional mile-mile1/2) The philosiphy I have is that every time I push forward, is another time that I HAVE TO PUSH BACK, that every time i commit forward, im commiting to going back, to me it builds strength and will power.  So i went to meet him now every additional mile i go is one I have to go back, because thats who I am, always finding my limit thats always my goal.  So I show him how to go directly west for a mile or two (he seriously is directionaly impared) then I bike down the trail, and I ask him if he wants to take point (lead) and he doesn't really understand the slang that I've grown up with, so I ask him again lead or follow.  Well he picks Follow, great not only do I have to set the pace, I'm taking the lead again.  Although when Wild follows he tail gaits way to close, especially with the trail conditions, which puts more pressure on me (ive biked 20 miles at this point im not exactly fresh like he is) caus when hes tailing really close its a sign that he wants to go faster.  Then I stop about 30 yards from my side trail that leads to my house, because theres this dam thats kinda cool the water heading into it is mirror smooth and then it kinda shifts and its really interesting to watch, and he stays there, completely silent (still listening to his ipod i presume) and its kinda my point where i just want to sit there and be alone, because I really have nothing to say, I guess I find bikeing and being in the forest more of a solo thing where I can just let myself go.  Thing is he doesn't think he can find his way home now (regardless of the fact that there was literally two turns in the whole trip one into the forrest perserve and one out but, whatever.  Then I went to a local resturant and really it was just like getting the feeling that he only wanted to be there simply because he didn't know his way home.  Either way, I saw a lot of him and its...disapointing that someone I thought would be willing to rise to a challenge failed at 50%

SUNDAY---ASP meeting, we are so close to the launch date for kentucky, its unbelievable, I told my best friend in the world that I have an interest in furry art (something Ive kept on the reserve for a while now) and he was okay with it.  I told Wild this caus hes thought about telling some of his friends and family for a while now (longer then I have, I dont know im willing to go on an impulse, instinct has kept me going for so long its hard to stop it) which kinda spiraled into the whole MFF thing, he consideres himself a member of the fandom, and i have for a while in the past as well, and I guess and its an odd feeling.  I see him and how he wants the unconditional acceptance that the fandom offers, which in its self isnt a bad thing, but I do so much (ASP, i play Guitar, I act, I'm active in Tech) that everything I do builds charcter (and i meet a lot of great friends and cool people while doing it) and It makes me stronger as an individual.  Then I see him wanting to do Rec activities and stuff with other members of the fandom, and then I see that it doesnt develop me as a person and even the charity organizations that the Furry Fandom donates to (animal protection and hospital organizations) isnt where the money is really needed, I believe in www.wolfsongalaska.org as a great organization wildlife is dieing and there sitting there letting it happen.  Then I look at it and being a member of the fandom seems to be a disease that holds me back, that anchors me in a place I dont want to be in.  In short its hard to explain.

MONDAY--well I went golfing with Rock, it was so much fun, I hit two balls into the river and the staff thought we were playing hookie from school, It was fun then I ate at a local diner in their area ( I live 40 min away) and went to drivers ed.  On the way back I stopped by at Anthony's house and got a warm welcome (there like a second family to me) i really should keep in touch with them more.


Ironicly when writeing this I was listening to The Way It Ends by Prototype
 
 
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Current Mood: blahblah
Current Music: The Way It Ends by Prototype
 
 
malamute29
07 May 2008 @ 10:13 pm
Acting is going well, my scene with my partner Bobby is going really well (Were doing a Scene from Schooter Thomas Makes it to the Top of the World) im playing Dennis, the play takes place when Dennis is called by his mother and is informed of his friend Schooter's suicide.  The play takes place in Dennis' memory and you see what makes Schooter suicidal, although you know the inevitable outcome of the play you really do hope to see a different ending then what you know is going to happen.  I think its really good to be honest...

IVE BEEN INDUCTED TO INTERNATIONAL THESPIAN SOCIETY.  This is a huge step in my career at school, not only does it look great on a College Resume, but I also get recognition from the school, colleges, and international organizations.  Another added bonus is I get to wear a loop of colored rope that shows the organization that I belong to. 

Academic Acheivement Award Ceremony, I was recognized for being ranked 4th out of 256 of my peers today, truely an outstanding feeling.  I also have an offer from the school to be in a film of legacy students, i am the 7th in my family, so naturally they want me in their film.  One of the last things I got to tell my grandfather before he died was that the next step in my educational career is his Alma Matter.

    My new instructer for Guitar is awesom, were going to lean peace of mind by boston, and some Metallica.  He is just a really really cool guy, Im thinking of getting new pick-ups on my guitar, if you know Mick Thompson from Slipknot, the Pick-ups on his guitar are made for massive gain and ultimate feedback, if you take your hand off the strings, you go deaf.  Im thinking of getting those.  The neck on my guitar is starting to warp, which sux because now im gonna have to pay for repair, which is why im thinking about new pick-ups.

I think updateing less frequently is better than every day but thats just me
 
 
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Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: Before I forget -- Slipknot
 
 
malamute29
21 April 2008 @ 08:13 pm
Had a dentist apointment today, nothing really amazeing happend, guitar is going fine
 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Music: Satisfied -- Boston
 
 
malamute29
20 April 2008 @ 12:47 am
Well, I'm starting to find out how expensive the musical career is, heres what I want and some general prices


Chromatic Tuner (BOSS) $100
Marshal Amp (4ft tall 3 ft wide w/sound rack) I can get it for about $600
Dean USA Z '79 Series $1500 custom inlays and volume toggle (up to $2000)
Metal Core  100
Digital Delay -6 DD-6 X2 $300
and many many more cool pedals
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Music: Cult of Personality